"You are not alone. You belong to a sacred sisterhood, the wounded , the rejected, the betrayed. You are seeing the truth, and in the horror of its light are shaken, battered and bruised. But you do not give up. You get onto bloodied knees and start to crawl forward again. Like a drowning woman, you reach out for a lifesaver, anything floating"
(I know all to well how that feels)
"It would be better to die, you sometimes tell yourself. You pray for courage to stand what you see. You hope for the strength to get through the next moment, the next hour, the next day"
(In the beginning for me I needed strength to get through the next second)
"Do you think he's having an affair?" "No. Not him. He'd never do that. We're a Christian family"
(I had asked that very question several times in our marriage
and responded the same way. "No. Not him he is a Christian)
"I wonder what else I don't know?"
"Everything in your life is on time. Even this. don't hurry the future. Live the present. Even embrace your pain. God will heal the past as you move forward one baby step at a time"
"I will go before you and make the crooked places straight"
Scripture found on page 35 of the book
If you are traveling this road I suggest you read this book. They share the truths of what happened in their lives combined with the hope we have in God and the encouragement that you/I will make it through.
Stay strong. Hold onto your friends and your faith!